Mind Over Matter??

I am laying in bed, wide awake and I keep needing to pee!! 

I haven't had a drink in 4 hours because I didn't want to be up all night waddling to the bathroom!!

Seriously last night I got up 3 times and for me that is ridiculous, plus the fact that it near breaks body parts just trying to roll out of bed! 

It got me thinking, Do I actually need to pee or do I just think I need to? 

The only problem with that thought is that as soon as I think it I suddenly can't stop thinking about it so I just may as well get up and go! 

I decided tonight to stop all fluids at 7.30 so I could try and get a semi good nights rest, which come to think of it, I don't think they actually happen while you are pregnant!

I swear my water bottle is taunting me and is chanting "skull me Jay" so I think it's time for me to banish her to the kitchen so I'm no longer tempted! 

Logically thinking Grace is just running out of room and my bladder is now the new toy for her to play with! 

I still like to (wishfully) think that stopping my fluids earlier might help but it won't! 

Night,

Jay-Marie 

P.S I'm off to the bathroom again :)

Week 37

Is this week over yet?? 

3 weeks to go!!

I swear I am slowly going insane! I am stuck between gallstones and a toddler testing his boundaries!!
There is only so many times you can say NO and move him off to do something else before you want to run out of the house screaming and pulling your hair out!
Then there are the gallstones, I have seriously never had so much pain in my body in my life, they make labour seem like a walk in the park! 
My worst nightmare is going into labour and having a gallbladder attack at the same time.

This week I have had braxton hicks every single day, nothing is coming of it which is disappointing but I will get there soon enough I am sure.
I have also started to waddle this week if I am not taking notice of what I am doing, it makes Jarryd and I have a good laugh because as soon as I get pulled up on it I am like "oh no, I better walk properly" 5 minutes later I swear I am waddling again!

After my gallbladder attack yesterday lasted almost 3 hours the doctor told me to talk to my midwives about being induced, I have thought about it all day today and after being induced with my Son I really wanted to go naturally this time because I kind of felt like I missed out last time.
I no the attacks are putting a lot of pressure on my body but it is something that I want to experience just this once as I know I am not going back for anymore after this one.

  
I am so proud of my big bump and the fact that I have no belly button!

I also finished my maternity shoot this week we only have one more shoot to go after Miss Grace is born to finish off my timeline photo's and then I will be able to share them with you.

 

A smile a day!!

Sometimes when I forget to smile all I have to do it look at my son and he cracks me up!

Finding a little bit of me time.

Since becoming a mum I sometimes struggle to find things to do for myself that don't involve anyone else but myself,
I used to enjoy curling up on the couch with a good book when I was tired but now I feel pressure to keep active and keep the toddler entertained during the day.

I love to go to the hair or beauty salon to be pampered but those days come few and far between because trying to organise it between Jarryd or mum to look after Toby is always hard.

I also love to model in my spare time, I love the feeling of getting dressed up and having my hair and make up done, then either doing the photoshoot or catwalk, it always makes me nervous but it gives such and amazing rush at the sometime.

 

My all time favorite thing to do is working with my horses! It is always something that makes me feel better when I am stressed (or it can make me stress out more) 
I am very head strong so Mum and Jarryd have had a lot of trouble keeping my out of the horse paddock and they both get grumpy with me when I do to much.

Finding the time to do these things can be hard and it makes it worse because I don't like asking for help but when I do I really enjoy getting out and taking the time to do the things I love.

 

Week 36

Doing weekly posts started off as an outlet to share my pregnancy with people who actually wanted to read about it not just sharing with my friends and family that are only worried about the end outcome!
I didn't expect to be sharing with such a huge following.
Thank you! 

Only 4 weeks until Grace is due!

This week I have felt completely exhausted again! I can hardly bring myself to do a lot of things and I feel horrible!
I have also been pushing myself too much and then can barely walk the next day.

I still don't know if I am completely ready to be a mum of two but it's a little late to be worried about that now, It is probably just the self doubt that my PND causes me but like last time I will fight my demons head on.

I also treated myself to some pampering this week and took myself to the hairdresser for a cut and colour, It was amazing and I felt so relax afterwards.

Tomorrow I have the last pregnancy photoshoot for my timeline, Toby and Jarryd are included with this one too so I am excited to get some family shots done!

I have started taking raspberry leaf tablets to start getting my girlie parts ready for birth, I didn't take them last time but it will be interesting to see if it makes any difference with this birth.
I am also hoping I don't have to be induced this time, I would really like to no what it feels like to go into labour and have my waters break at a stupid time but I guess we will see what happens.

Next week I should find out what position Grace is in and how much she approximately weighs, I am so excited to know all that.

Please be head down!!

I think that is all I have to report on this week.

     

Week 35

5 more weeks!!

Sorry guys I have completely been missing in action these last few weeks! 
I have been trying to keep myself busy because I am so bored waiting for this precious little person to enter the world! 

Finally she has a name! Well actually she has a first name and a last name but no middle name as yet, but it's a start right?

Grace!

It was alway's at the top of our list but we wanted to look over every option before we made up our mind!

 

I have Finally packed my labour bag! It took a lot of convincing from Jarryd but at least now it is done and I don't need to worry about it at the last minute!

The next thing on my list to do is to clean out my car and fit the baby capsule as I don't like my chances of Jarryd doing it properly!

I have been thinking about how much I am going to miss being pregnant! Being our last child I am trying so hard not to complain about how hard it is to do simple things like rolling over in bed!

I am going to miss feeling my little girl moving inside my tummy, getting kicked in the ribs, having an excuse to eat chocolate and my big belly!

I am not going to miss the weight that I have put on over the last few months!

We are all very excited for the arrival of our little girl in the coming weeks and can't wait to introduces her beautiful face to the world!

 

 

Beached Whale Alert!

God, it feels so good to be able to vent somewhere other than Facebook right now!

I feel sorry for all my social media friends that have had to read my baby comments for the last 30 weeks but that just seems like an easier way to talked to everyone instead of sending them all text messages!

I don't think I could even manage to sit down and have a conversation on the phone right now either! 

I have unfortunately gotten to that stage in my pregnancy where everything is starting to become a real effort, I get puffed easily, my joint are sore, my muscles are aching, hell even my back fat hurts!! 

Walking up a small hill makes me feel like I have run 20km and don't even get me started on trying to scale some stairs!

I think mums that are on their 2nd or more pregnancy deserve a medal!! (Don't worry first time mummas, your doing an amazing job too) 

I find myself frazzled by the end of the day and in the last weeks had to decide between staying awake the whole day with a crazy 17 month old or going my housework and not lasting the whole day! 

The housework hasn't even gotten a look in this week! 

It doesn't help that I have to lose my temper with Jarryd just to get him to help and he has decided that going to the gym 4 times a week is completely fine even with a waddling wife! 

   

I have truly been pushing myself way too hard to get out and about as well as trying to keep myself active when all I want to do is sleep until I am due! 

I have been having coffee dates, working with the horses including my young horse, setting up my business, unfortunately it has all finally caught up with me!

As fast as this time seems to have gone it is also starting to drag like hell!

I offered Jarryd to have my huge belly for the next 4 week, he quickly said NO! 

Anyway this beached whale better sign off!! 

Much love to you all xoxo

Week 34

6 Weeks To Go!!

It feels like these last 10 weeks is dragging so bad.
I am so bored not working that I decided it was finally time to get my home Lace and Trims business off the ground! 
I know that sounds kind of crazy being the fact that I am about to have my hands full with baby number 2 but I just feel like at this point in my life if I don't do it now I may never get another chance.

Bumpette seems to be sitting really low now compared to a few weeks ago but that's ok because each day that goes by she is getting bigger and stronger.

This week I have been really flat and tired! I am struggling to get out of bed and even refused to cook tea on Thursday night which is not like me at all! 
Instead I lay in bed and read the rest of my trashy Silvia Day Novel 'Entwined with you' I had waited so long for that book to be released and now I have to wait god only knows how long for her to write another one.

I seen my midwives on Wednesday and apparently I have very low iron levels again which means I could be in for an iron infusion in the next week! I hate having them but I will admit they make you feel great afterwards!

As you would probably believe I still haven't packed my labour bag, I still keep putting it off like it isn't an important thing to have done, I have however packed the baby bag so that is something less that I have to stress about.

On Tuesday I said goodbye to one of our beautiful horses Ty, He is off to Queensland to a wonderful new family but that didn't make it any easier to let him go!

Hopefully these next weeks don't drag on too much as I am so excited to meet little bumpette!

 

Grumpy Mumma Bear

I am a very laid back person but I refuse to walk on egg shells around people or bite my tongue while someone feels the need to have a dig at me!

I am a typical 22yo Mum, I like to share what is going on with my life and children with my friends and family on facebook and they are always commenting on my posts and laughing with me about crazy things my Son and Husband have done!
Some people are not so supportive and take it upon themselves to have a dig at you about how you choose to raise your children!

It actually upsets me when other mothers decide to bring down a fellow parent!
My son is 17 months old I still give him a bottle to drink his milk from, He still has a dummy and a blanket, He sometimes stay's in his PJ's all day and I haven't even thought about toilet training him yet!

He is my son and I will bring him up the way that I believe is best for us!

People should really learn to keep their opinions to themselves!